I came home from that appointment frustrated and utterly defeated. Why? I couldn't explain it; I was doing everything they told me to; I prayed- God could heal me if He wanted to..so why? Deep grief and utter abandonment came over several days; my soul hit bottom and my body was at war with me.
The first realization I had was- He could, but He didn't, and there has to be a reason. My prayer changed from 'remove this' to 'use this'. If God isn't changing the situation then I need him to show me a new direction. I stopped begging for things to be the way they were before and started praying for the wisdom and grace to live with the now--'if You won't remove it, grow me through it'. Let me say that this one change made all the difference.
The next step was evaluation- I realized that mild symptoms had been occurring for a few years..so what in my own habits had changed? What could I do about it? Over the course of kids becoming teens, our diet had slacked- alot. Starches and sugars crept in and took root- not at all good (and known to feed the problem). My heart felt the surge and research and discussions led me back to the way I use to feed my family..the way God grew it. I re-read Leviticus and The Maker's Diet; after all..if God had a plan it was a good one.
Where am I today? Listening, learning and seeking...it's a never ending process. Do I still have cysts? Yes, and many days where the symptoms disrupt my life. Am I still under my doctor's care? Yes..we are working together to keep them at bay and prevent another surgery. Am I on treatments for them? Yes..and no, I do not like them nor the side effects they bring. And the habits? Since starting my dietary changes and exercise regiment my good days far out weigh my bad; for the most part I feel better, my pain is less, and my nausea/headache/fatigue is much improved. Yet, I know..it isn't over.
Ovarian/uterine cyst trouble runs in families- and I have two daughters who need to be aware and need to be proactive about this. Over the next couple of days, my daughters and I will be sharing information about our walk with ovarian/uterine cysts. If you or anyone you know is battling this issue we welcome your input.